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In the documentary, Being Gail Porter, the TV presenter opens up about two decades of mental health struggles — delving into her past and revealing the key moments in a deeply personal exploration of depression, self-harm and anorexia.

‘I was legally mad!’

A poster girl for the 1990s, Gail was a bubbly, witty, unflappable TV presenter married to an indie rock guitarist.

She rocketed to fame in her twenties but underneath the effervescent blonde was a vulnerable girl struggling to cope and hiding it from everyone.

Increasing mental health struggles would eventually mount up contributing to a divorce, the loss of her hair and financial ruin. It culminated in Gail being held against her will (she was clinically sectioned) for 28 days in a London hospital in 2011.

"I was legally mad!" she says.

‘The celebrity fairytale became a nightmare’

Gail's story is told by the woman herself and from the beginning we are reminded just how extraordinary the change in her circumstances was.

"In 1999 I was presenting the country's top music show, I was one of the UK's most famous female TV presenters and most famously I helped sell over a million copies of a magazine after they projected my image onto the Houses of Parliament. But the celebrity fairytale became a nightmare."

"It's only now I feel able to face up to what I've been through."

In an effort to understand what happened, Gail retraces her steps in this moving film which highlights the vulnerability of young people thrust into the spotlight.

‘I heard my name on the Â鶹Éç News and there was my bottom’

From the 'alopecia totalis', the loss of her hair, which she says effectively ended her TV career overnight, to that time a magazine publicly projected a 60-feet tall naked image of her without asking, Gail relives some of her highest profile moments.

The FHM stunt was a defining moment for Gail and led to a great deal of backlash.

"I heard my name on the Â鶹Éç News and there was my bottom."

"People thought it was a career move. It absolutely wasn't. I knew nothing about it."

The negative comments that followed plunged Gail into a depression, "I didn't want to leave the house."

Gail recognises that now she might be able to use her image to help people. "Even now, people want my image to make a point hopefully in a more positive way."

In the clip below Gail allows the cameras to capture an honest moment of upset that appears to come out of nowhere.