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Waiting. I'm sitting out on the lawn, waiting. I glance impatiently at my watch. Oh no. He should be here soon. 5 minutes. If that. My stomach is lurching around inside me. I can hardly breathe. I think I'm going to be sick. Oh god help me. I don't want to have failed. Failed myself, failed my parents, failed everyone. I can't believe how frightened I am. It scares me how nervous I feel. Help me. Oh please. Help Me.

Waiting. I sit at the side, my friends laughing and running around nearby but I just sit and wait. My phone clasped in my hand. My stomach is lurching around inside me. I can hardly breathe. I think I'm going to be sick. Oh god help me. I don't want to have failed. Failed myself, failed my parents, failed everyone. I can't believe how frightened I am. It scares me how nervous I feel. Help me. Oh please. Help Me.

Waiting. I sit at the computer, my emails open in front of me. Send/Receive. Come on. I can't stand this much longer. Oh please no. My stomach is lurching around inside me. I can hardly breathe. I think I'm going to be sick. Oh god help me. I don't want to have failed. Failed myself, failed my parents, failed everyone. I can't believe how frightened I am. It scares me how nervous I feel. Help me. Oh please. Help Me.

Help me.