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Carolyn was the girl who everyone hated, who was an outsider, who everyone avoided like the plague, or even worse, slapped her around. Nobody played with her or sat beside her. I'm Joanna. The girl sitting on the bench is me, and here is my story, from when I was 11.
No matter where she tried to hide, they always found her, Carolyn couldn't understand why nobody liked her, neither did I. That girl is Lily, and her words and insults pierce you like glass.
One day I walked into the toilets to find her crying, instead of shunning her, astonish I beckoned her to the steps beside the men's toilets. "Hey, Carolyn, I don't have a clue about class today, electricity?!?! I know nothing about it!"
Carolyn looked at me silently, and her mouth turned upwards, as if she was about to smile, "Same, we could look it up on the computer, we could go to the library today!'
That is what I worried about, Julia (the meanest of the "gang") and her friends could be there, Julia thinks I'm one of her best friends, but I actually can't stick her. "Maybe one day wouldn't hurt to be friends with Carolyn" a voice popped up in my head.
"Sure" I replied, and Carolyn smiled fondly.
The bell rang loud, "Lunch" we both said and headed off, now pretending we hadn't even made contact...
At lunch time, I sat beside a big group of people, laughing at their jokes and craning to hear what they were saying, while Carolyn sat quietly alone at the back, I thought it was a shame, but I couldn't get a bad name by sitting beside her, I decided to just not talk to her at all until I had the chance to meet her in the toilets again. At break time I played with Becca (one of my friends), and watched her swing high on the swings, while Carolyn just lay on the cold hard ground, staring straight up into the sky. "She probably wouldn't want to play with you right now." said a voice in my head, I agreed. After break it was art, we could do anything we wanted, partners or on your own, before I could grab an easel Carolyn came right up to me and asked, "Could you work with me?" Julia eyed me and a few people made faces, "Leave Joanna alone, loser!" they said.
I was about to say any old excuse, when I actually wanted to go partners with her, when Miss.Green said to me, "Yes, dear, go with Carolyn" I suppose she didn't hear what the class were saying to Carolyn, but I walked up to Carolyn's easel, "I'll paint a portrait of you." She smiled
After a while I notice Carolyn is doing great! Its like a masterpiece, I wish I could say that but then I remember, I don't want a bad name."
Julia really had it for Carolyn, she lunged for her and punched her and kicked her, she said it was because she was trying to take me away and so she deserved this. Carolyn had gashes and bruises all over her face. I felt extremely sorry for her, I almost felt I could cry but then Julia came up to me and linked arms with me, "Hey, Jojo, come and sit over in the benches with me.
..."She did what?!?" she sounded angry (not with me but with Carolyn) when I told her about Carolyn asking me to the library, "I only said yes, because I felt sorry for her, now I don't really, I mean, she's a state."
I felt as if I had jumped out of my body and was look at me talking, shocked! But then I thought, "I don't want to get beaten up by Julia too, so I had to like the same things as her, think the same things as her, "Tell her you can't come then." Julia said casually.
"Err, Carolyn, I can't come to the library, I have to help my mum with shopping." I said to Carolyn uneasily.
She looked at me, amused and said softly, "It's okay, I know the real truth anyway" and she walked away!
The morning after that day, I was reading the newspaper, when I came across this article:
CAROLYN MILTON, 11 DIES IN TRAGIC FIRE IN HER HOME
....................................CAROLYN TRIED TO FIGHT THE FIRE ALONE, HER MOTHER WAS IN THE SHOWER, WHEN IT PERISHED HER ALIVE, FIREMEN WHERE THERE, BUT WERE TOO LATE TO SAVE POOR CAROLYN
......... I couldn't bear it.
I remember crying and crying and crying, It went on for weeks, not just because I would not see her again, it was because I was mean to her, I really wish I was not now still....
Now I am 27, Carolyn's portrait of me got ruined over the past few years, so I found a picture that she drew before it. It looks like heaven, now Carolyn is there, no longer waiting for a friend....

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